Our church is doing a kind of fast as we study 2 Chronicles 7:14. Usually that fast would involve food for me. But as I asked the Lord in prayer I felt Him impressing on my heart that I needed to stop watching the TV—movies, videos, etc. It’s been harder than I.thought. Kind of took me by surprise. I had been promising myself each night as a “reward” to kick back and watch a movie. Not that we have all those cable channels—but Amazon Prime and Netflix are quite enough in themselves. OK—a little limited Disney Plus also. But anyway, I see in retrospect how much I allowed myself to be distracted and my connection with God has been cloudy at best.
Later this month we will finish the series—and the fast—but I am not sure whether I will go back to the movies again. I love the movies and there are lots of amazing stories and truths in some of those stories—real nuggets. But I am wondering if this is a time when I need to diligently turn my face again to God, even when my heart is still kind of numb. I want to be alive to Him. But I still feel kind of dead and disconnected. There are moments that spark His life in me, but I want so much more than that.
I was sharing with a friend that I don’t believe we even know what repentance is in this nation. I don’t. I have had maybe a
glimpse or two in my lifetime. But even then, my heart quickly grows numb again. I want to daily walk in His presence in such a way that I am aware of Him wherever I go and whatever I do. Yet I find myself just as disconnected as so many others are.
I need to learn again how to abide/remain/dwell in the Vine. He is my very Life. My Maker, Savior, Shield, Lord and Friend—the Lover of my Soul.
Teach me again how to remain—to dwell in You, Lord. To drink in Your goodness and grace and let Your Spirit reshape me. Help me surrender to You all the dead things that I take comfort in because they are what I know and they feel so familiar to me. Help me know You better and deeper than ever before until I come to that place where You are the most familiar to Me. You are who and what I know best in this life. You are my All-in-All. Amen.
Is there something the Lord is asking you to offer up to Him for a season?
If so, what might that be? Feel free to comment below.